Ugh

Tomorrow is the day that I have been dreading ever since I gave birth to my little monkey man. That's right. I go back to work tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. I am happy that Alex has the day off so he can watch him while I am at work, but I will still miss him. I talked Alex into taking me to work tomorrow. It took little negotiating actually. It makes more sense considering that we have family night at Alex's parents' house. The good news, I only work weekends. I have to keep reminding myself that I am only going to be working weekends so it's not really that big of a deal being gone for 8 hours each day. I'll be fine.

On a brighter note, I successfully completed my second week of working out today. The first week I went 5 out of 7 days, but it was random. This week: Monday-Friday 6:30-7a.m. workouts. 25-30 minutes on the elliptical machine and then weights. Arms and legs every other day. It feels good to get back in the swing of things and it works out well, really. Keagan has been sleeping 9 hours at night for the past week so when he gets up at 6:15, I feed him and put him back in bed and then I go to the gym. It's kind of sad how out of shape I have gotten these past months. I am pretty hard on myself, and even though I had a baby 8 weeks ago, I feel like my body should be more like what it was before I got pregnant. It is not at all like what it was pre-pregnancy though. I wish results would show sooner. One good thing is my pre-pregnancy jeans are starting to fit better. It's kind of weird how it works..jeans fitting better but the numbers on the scale don't really change much. That's why it's frustrating. I have to keep telling myself that numbers don't mean everything.

Another completely random thought, I am really happy that it is fall. I love this season. Sunny, cool weather. Leaves on the ground. Trees turning oranges and reds. It really makes me happy. Part of it has to do with the fact that I met Alex in the summer and we started dating in the fall. Ugh, sappy. Alex would be so disappointed if he read this. Anyway, all along I have been saying how depressed it makes me that it is starting to get dark at 6:30 at night, but not I am kind of looking forward to daylight savings.

I don't want to go to work tomorrow. UGH! Maybe I won't wait so long to write my next blog either.